Update #14 | Stream Of (Stressed Out) Consciousness

Hey, you lovely lot! Thought I would do a little update today, since it's a new year and January makes me nervous so I need a good distraction to be honest, so don't mind me while I just ramble away and get everything off my chest.. a stream of consciousness if you will! I don't know what it is but my anxiety levels have been seriously high recently and I think it's because this year is such a big year and the fact that it's now 2017 has just made me realise how soon everything is happening. I'm actually hoping to write a clearer post on this in the near future, just explaining why January can be tough for a lot of us (since I'm pretty sure I'm not alone!) and also sharing a few tips for beating the January blues, so if you're interested in that definitely pop back soon or keep up to date with my twitter. I actually have loads of mental health posts planned for January and February for some reason, I suppose it's just something that's on my mind at the moment - so prepare yourselves for lots of that. I haven't really written many mental health posts for a while, in fact the last one was back in November so I am glad to get back to writing some motivational pep talks again! 

But anyways, my main worry at the moment is my dissertation and finding the time to actually write it. Being a person who leaves everything to the last minute is a definite flaw when it comes to having to write a dissertation because this is seriously not the kind of thing you can just leave till the night before! But I am seriously trying to get it done, I was saying on twitter just now I literally planned out my entire week to work on my dissertation and get as much of it done as possible, then I spoke to a friend who reminded me that we actually have two assignments due in really soon - so there's that plan out of the window! I literally don't know when I'm going to get it done and it's stressing me out, I think I've taken on too much by trying to work part time whilst in my third year, but if I can get through this year then I can get through anything, right?! Roll on April when I can finally hand it in and be done with all this stress - you don't even realise how massive the grin on my face is going to be when I finally hand it in and I don't have to stress over essays anymore! It's weird to think that I have literally been in education for like 17 years (I say 'like' because I'm terrible at maths and literally just had to google '21-4' in order to double check I was right... lol you wouldn't have guessed I'd been education for 17 years would you, haha!) and needless to say, I am 100% ready to leave education now, as scary as it is, I am done with essays and presentations. But yes, my game plan at the moment is to get these two essays done as soon as possible and then get on with my dissertation - so I have a fun few months ahead of me, woo! 

I did manage to get one massive weight off my shoulders though, we finally tackled the mess that was our spare room and we actually have an office now! (I say 'we' but it's pretty much Ethan's office, let's be real, haha!) But yeah, that room genuinely used to look like a hoarders living room. It was where we just shoved anything that didn't have a home, including our coats that were put on the floor in the doorway - it made me super stressed as you can probably tell, haha! But we finally bit the bullet and got it done and now I'm super happy to have that out of the way! Maybe I can finally have an actual blogging set-up.. that's if Ethan gives me any desk space - We could be super cute and have 'his' and 'hers' desk spaces... yeah right, haha! We just need to tackle the dining room now next, which means buying my dining table - I'm stupidly excited about this dining table by the way... is this what being an adult is?!

I'm seriously loving blogging at the moment though by the way, I think it's a distraction from the stress to be honest - which is a good thing and a bad thing. It's a good thing because it means that I've genuinely found a hobby that makes me feel good but it's also bad because the stresses I'm distracting myself from are important things like my dissertation... ugh. There's me like 'I don't know when I'll have time to write my dissertation!' whilst writing my fourth blog post of the day.. lol that pretty much sums me up. But yeah, whether it's a good or a bad thing I'm feeling super inspired to write loads and I'm loving it! I better make the most of it to be honest because I can imagine that February to March I'm going to be in manic dissertation writing mode, ugh can't wait, haha!

To see a post from one year ago today click here!


  1. I'm the same for it, I do everything last minute and it ruins me it really does, I wish I knew how to change. I've got deadline central coming up too as well as placement so yay that's going to be fun!
    Amy at www.amynmore.co.uk

    1. I know exactly how you feel! I always work better under pressure but I always leave so many deadlines, oops! x

  2. I completely understand and relate to how you're feeling <3